Valentine's Day

This Valentine's Day will be the start of so many better ones for me. Carolina and I will have dinner and a movie that night which is typical but I plan on being all purrtied up for it. I have still have a hard time going out in public totally as myself. I have dug out this whole where I am neither male or female and I claim I am happy here but I am not. I am going to make this one memorable for her because she hasn't seen me really all purrtied up. I am not saying all girls have to wear make up and heels etc, I just want to make that choice for once in my life and not be this butchier looking woman. Carolina really wants to see that person because she claims she hasn't. I am going to take Monday since I don't work to actually take time to prepare and not be scared either. I think that's been the issue, worrying about not passing or getting harassed. I have been harassed a few times in public bathrooms which has contributed to my anxiety sometimes. I am going to do some shopping this weekend and hopefully find a nice outfit to wear. This really is just a new experience for me.