Depression Hurts

Damn Cymbalta ads give me a good headline ;). Life has been weird lately. Two incidents at work in the last week and a half really have spurned an intense desire to change jobs. I have been trying to focus on who I am and let that translate into a good job. I hope that happens. Anxiety and depression have been double fisting me lately like I am some porn star. I just need to get out of that. I hope I will feel better soon. I feel I am depressed because I am afraid of being happy. I am afraid of being myself fulltime becuase then I would actually accomplish something. I have had a bad habit of sabotaging my life in many ways.
Depression has been whats keeping me from reviewing two books I have read so far for my Cannonball Read. Hopefully soon I'll be able to do them.
A lot of times I have felt like I am someone's third option or that I am the one doing all the chances at being their friend. I long to feel like I am someone's first option for friendship again or that people will contact me.

Dance Break:


I am trying to tell myself that its only a week til Pitchers and Catchers which is awesome. I hope to see the Sox kick some ass this year. Of course Benjamin and Kristina want the Twins to succeed.