Damn Cymbalta ads give me a good headline ;). Life has been weird lately. Two incidents at work in the last week and a half really have spurned an intense desire to change jobs. I have been trying to focus on who I am and let that translate into a good job. I hope that happens. Anxiety and depression have been double fisting me lately like I am some porn star. I just need to get out of that. I hope I will feel better soon. I feel I am depressed because I am afraid of being happy. I am afraid of being myself fulltime becuase then I would actually accomplish something. I have had a bad habit of sabotaging my life in many ways.
Depression has been whats keeping me from reviewing two books I have read so far for my Cannonball Read. Hopefully soon I'll be able to do them.
A lot of times I have felt like I am someone's third option or that I am the one doing all the chances at being their friend. I long to feel like I am someone's first option for friendship again or that people will contact me.
Dance Break:
I am trying to tell myself that its only a week til Pitchers and Catchers which is awesome. I hope to see the Sox kick some ass this year. Of course Benjamin and Kristina want the Twins to succeed.
There are many things to eliminate the blues:
ReplyDelete*Rob Lowe on Parks & Recreation: "This is literally the best _______ I have ever had...in my LIFE!" (it's like watching a grown man view the world like he's 8...the world is beautiful/magical place)
*The undintentional humor of politicians who think: "I know! I'll try and set up a romantic rendezvous with a woman on Craig's List...there's no way she'll realize I'm an elected official and publish our flirtatious conversations!"
*Joe Mauer's Sideburns/Carl Crawford's slamming into walls
*The undeniable genius of Shahrukh Khan (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aYyKvp5oT8Q)
Hells yes!
ReplyDeleteThe interesting thing about sabotage is that it gives you the comfort of controlling your own failure. You have to let go of that control, try, and risk succeeding wildly.
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